And so it begins...aGAIN

7 years ago, I dug out my brave pants and walked through the doors of our local Weight Watchers. I had gained a lot of weight after moving away from home, after marriage, and after having a baby. My brave pants were extra tight at this point, but I knew I had to do it! That was one of the hardest things I've done in my life. I still remember the feelings I had as I told the women at the front desk, "I am ready to change my life." And so it began. I worked my butt off, literally. Within 8 months, I had lost 70 pounds and became a lifetime member of Weight Watchers. Yay me, right? WRONG!  You see the thing is, once you hit your goal, you can't quit. You can't just assume that once you've crossed the line and you're feelin' fine, that you are done forever. I thought I was. And slowly but surely weight started creeping on. I'd see myself up 5 pounds and say to myself, "Well, my pants still fit. I won't let the scale go aaaaany higher," but when it did, I justified it again by saying, "Well, I know it's not realistic for me to be this size anyway, so one size up really doesn't make that big of a difference, and I still feel good." And then 1 size up, turned to two sizes up, and then eventually the scale got very dusty sitting in the corner of the bathroom. I quit caring. It was too hard, and I gained all that weight back.
Fast forward to 2 weeks ago. I hadn't quite gotten my ah ha moment, but knew I couldn't wait around for it, because by the time the lights came on, I'd be in BIG trouble! I did know that it was time to face my fears again, and thus the title of this post "And so it begins aGAIN" happened. And the hardest part??? Walking through those dang doors of Weight Watchers, as a failure. It's taken these last two weeks, to realize that this journey isn't until I hit my goal. This journey is a life long, forever, through thick and thin (pun intended) journey. I had somewhat of an ah ha moment when I realized that God loves me no matter what. NO. MATTER. WHAT. But I want him to know that I love him too! And the body he gave me, is a complete gift! And I started thinking about material gifts I've received in my lifetime, and how I value them and don't want anything to happen to my special treasures. This is when the light switched. Don't I think that God thinks I'm a special treasure? Don't I think that God would want me to take care of the gift he gave me too? Of course he does. And so I have committed myself to take much, much better care of that gift he gave me. Does this mean that I can never enjoy a brownie again? Nope. God wouldn't want that. Does this mean I have to give up my Diet Mountain Dew? Nope. He definitely wouldn't want that!  Does this mean I have to be accountable to everything I put into my body, being food, or drink or exercise? YEP!
It's been 2 weeks since I began my forever journey and I have to put my pride aside and be ok with letting people know I'm trying to be a better version of myself. I am putting it out there so you can all help me. And fyi....helping doesn't mean, nagging. I need as much support as I can get. So let's raise our diet dews and toast, "TO US!" *ching*

Weighing in:
Week 1  I feel great. I made a consistent effort to get off the couch and into the gym again. I have a great work out buddy, which is helping me stay accountable, and while our lives make it so we can't get to the gym everyday, I made sure I got some sort of activity in at least 5 times a week. Tracking points on the new Weight Watcher system (Points Plus) is a breeze! I have the app downloaded to my phone, so everything is at my finger tips.
Weigh in date April 16th:  -5.6 lbs.
Weigh in date April 23: Stay tuned