I've not updated in a long while. Seems lately, that's how most of these blog updates start. Well, here I am again, writing some of my thoughts and trying to keep it as real as I can.
If you haven't ever read this blog, let me tell you right now, you won't find puppies, or adorable little pinteresty crafts I've done (cause I don't craft) that I might be showing off. This here blog is about my weight loss journey, turned weight maintenance journey, and I'll flat out, no fluff tell you, IT'S FRIGGIN' HARD! So if you've stumbled upon this blog in hopes for all sunshine and rainbows, you're going to get clouds and storms and just glimpses of sunshine.
I get so many people tell me, "Oh my gosh. You look so good! I wish I had your will power." And to all you compliment makers out there, "THANK YOU!" But guess what? It's not will power. I like to call it, "WON'T POWER!" I WON'T choose that. I WON'T eat this. I WON'T sleep in. I WON'T keep my size 20 jeans hanging in my closet. You feel me?
Guess what? I WILL have horrible days! I WILL go out to eat! I WILL choose to eat extra weekly points. And I WILL notice on the scale that I did such. Eeeeeeek.
This weekend was NOT a great weekend for "WON'T POWER!" But....I'm keeping it real and letting you know that I struggle. I'm not perfect. I am up 4 pounds from where I want to be. I've been as low in the dumps as a human can go. That was 2 years ago and that's when I decided to put on the tightest pair of brave pants I owned at the time, and walk through the doors of my local Weight Watchers. I WON'T go back to those dumpy days! You may not have ever known I was so low, because I was great at hiding it. I fought back! And I CONTINUE to fight. The boxing gloves don't EVER come off! My struggle, will one day be my greatest story! I've been pushed to my limits on occasion. It's a knock out, drag out continuous fight and I try to give my best each day. This weekend, it didn't happen. So what can I do about it? Keep swinging at it. Keep fighting. That's what.
Let's raise our diet dews...."TO WON'T POWER!" #CHING
I love your latest addition to your blog. You are such an inspiration to me and everyone. I hear you about the struggle. Weekends are particularly hard for me. Why? Your guess is as good as mine. This weekend I pushed through and had a good one. What a relief. Now I just have to continue out the week "having a good one". I NEVER and I mean NEVER want to get back into my old weigh in clothes. I have kept mine and they are hidden on a shelf in my closet. I have kept them to show my members how big they were. I believe I will take them to my meeting this week and show them the old me. My kids will be the lucky ones to throw away those weigh in clothes when I'm dead. Everything else, every other item of clothing I had back then is gone. I am using your "I WON'T POWER" phrase, to say I'm never going to go back to where I once was. It's so interesting you and I both lost almost the same amount of weight as I recall. I have loved being your leader and watching you shrink and gain confidence in yourself. So thrilled to have you on board with us now at WW. Love ya my dear, dear friend. LuAnn W.
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